Yes, I’m a Christian

In the wake of the Umpqua Community College shooting in Oregon this week, there’s one question I’m struggling with over most others. It’s not about gun control, it’s not about mental health strategies, and it’s not about politics. It’s about my relationship with God.

Stories have come out from the survivors about how the shooter asked people about their religious beliefs. Some claim that Christians were targeted, others suggest that it was simply gauging each victim’s perception of where they were about to go. Whatever the truth, I find myself asking the question.

If someone pointed a gun at me, and asked if I’m a Christian, would I say yes knowing that it meant their next action would be to pull the trigger? Continue Reading →

Forgiving Jesus?

Today, a video was brought to my attention where Seth Dahl speaks about Jesus asking him for forgiveness. As per usual, when I see an outrageous headline on Facebook, I figured that there has to be more to the story than just what the thumbnail seems to be saying. Intrigued, though, I clicked through.

Dahl speaks about how he was hurt by a pastor of a church. He doesn’t go into details, but then he speaks about a vision that he had while lying on the floor of the chapel that they’re currently in. Continue Reading →

Arguing with God

Arguing with GodThe past few weeks I’ve been going through a pretty intense argument with God. Which, in some ways, is a bit ridiculous because let’s face it, He wins. Even when we don’t listen, He’s still in charge.

Four weeks or so ago, I was in Port Macquarie, struggling over what step to take next in my life, when I had one of those moments where God speaks so clearly, He might as well be sitting next to you. For several months previous, I’d received several invitations to come to a particular church in Melbourne, along with hints about living there. Then I was walking through Port Macquarie one day, gazing up at the skies, just asking God how to work out what step to take next when he just dropped the words straight into my heart. It was one of the clearest directions I’ve ever received in my life.

So, great, right? I was locked in. I had a bit of a holiday in Brisbane to enjoy, and then I would make my way to Melbourne and settle there, so that I could get involved in this church. It’s exciting when God gives you a nice clear direction, because suddenly you’re just raring to go and find out what He has in store for you.

Then Queensland happened. Continue Reading →

Not as I will, but as You will

Then he said to them, “My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death. Stay here and watch with Me.”

He went a little farther and fell on His face, and prayed, saying, “O My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will.” 

Again, a second time, He went away and prayed, saying, “O My Father, if this cup cannot pass away from Me unless I drink it, Your will be done.”

~Matthew 26: 38-39, 42

I think the Garden of Gethsemane sometimes gets a little overlooked throughout the Easter story, but it’s important. This is the part where we see that Jesus really was human. Here is Jesus, the Son of God, on his knees pleading with the Father that He find some other way.

There was a part of Jesus that didn’t want to do this. Continue Reading →